Saturday, August 13, 2011
So what is Cambodia like? I haven't experienced Cambodia too much outside of school, though I did ride on the back of a moto for the first time (public transportation where you get on the back of someone's motorcycle and they take you where you need to go) when I went out to coffee with a new friend from India. We were the only people at the coffee place and were watched the whole time. :) The city is an interesting place to be--there is no space. There are shops of everywhere, and swarms of motos and tuk-tuks on the streets. I think the most frustrating thing for me so far though has been the inability to communicate. I have not been in a culture for a long time where I couldn't communicate, and I forgot what it feels like. Waving and smiling doesn't quite satisfy. However, within the next couple of weeks I will start my Khmer lessons. :)
This morning I was reading Psalm 103. As I have been going through this week and the past few weeks, I have made many mistakes in the ways I am teaching, in the ways I am interacting with people, and in the ways I am thinking. And I know that those mistakes will continue to happen. I have gotten frustrated with myself and though my emotions are mostly numb right now in my transition, my feelings of guilt have been active. As a rational person, I have been able to tell myself to stop being overwhelmed by guilt, but this morning reading Psalms 103 confirmed what I had been thinking. In verses 9-10 he says,
"He will not always accuse, nor will He harbor His anger forever; He does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities."
Then later in verse 13-14:
"As a father has compassion on his children, so the Lord has compassion on those who fear Him; for He knows how we are formed, He remembers that we are dust."
My "need" to not make mistakes is not how God looks at me. He remembers that I am dust and has compassion. :) So there is my thought for the day.
I haven't been able to take too many pictures, but here are some of my music room. It is one of the best classrooms in the school, so I am very thankful. The last 2 pictures are taken from the roof of my house showing the contrast between people's living situations here in Phnom Penh.